Yan Yan - Chapter 52.1

Chapter 52.1
The black Ferrari drove into the cemetery and stopped at the gate of the Xie family cemetery at the top of the mountain.
The rain came pouring down, covering everything in a thick layer of white.
The door opened, and Su Yan stepped out of the car with Xie Yu, holding a black umbrella.
She didn’t know why Xie Yu brought her to pay respect to his father, but it seemed okay because he gave up his wedding for the sake of his father.
‘Maybe he felt very connected to his father and wanted to bring me to show respect.
Perhaps he believes this is the best place to hide from Bai Xingfan for now.
‘But if I stay here for a long time, he will find us eventually, right?’
“Does he know where your dad is buried?” Su Yan asked with concern as she followed Xie Yu.
Xie Yu held a black umbrella and asked Su Yan if she was worried about being found.
Su Yan gave a sad smile and said, “Don’t you know what kind of person he is?”
Why didn’t he know? He knew exactly what kind of person Bai Xingfan was: sneaky, distrustful, and willing to do anything to get what he wanted.
As a result, Xie Yu found it harder to understand why Su Yan wanted to marry someone she was so afraid of.
The heavy rain fell on the umbrella, making a crackling noise.
Su Yan didn’t talk for a while and then said, “He bought part of my dad’s company.”
Xie Yu was very surprised.
Su Yan: “He didn’t let me choose.”
Xie Yu held an umbrella in his left hand and clenched his right hand into a fist at his side. “Don’t you hate him?” he asked.
Su Yan: “What’s the point of hating him? Anyway, we can’t stop him.”
“Do you want to leave him?” Xie Yu asked excitedly. ‘If you want, I can stop being stubborn and make things easier for you, and we can leave right away.’
Su Yan realised the meaning of Xie Yu’s question. She pondered for a while before saying, “I don’t want to.”
Xie Yu stopped walking, looked upset, and clenched his fist so hard that his fingernails dug into his palm.
‘Why do you not want to break up with him?
I want to take you somewhere peaceful, away from all the problems and fights.
I don’t want to cause you pain or make you feel upset.
I have let you down and broken your trust and love.
But you chose him again.’
After holding back his feelings and staying quiet for a while, Xie Yu sighed and asked, “Why do you want to stay with someone who treats you this way? Do you love him that much?”
Su Yan did not say anything.
Xie Yu refused to give up and said firmly, “If you want to leave him, I will help you leave now, and you will never come back.”
Su Yan felt very scared, and she spoke quietly with a helpless feeling, “I can’t come with you.”
Xie Yu gripped the umbrella handle tightly, causing his knuckles to turn white on his arm. “Why?”
Su Yan breathed in deeply and then breathed out. She looked at Xie Yu with thankful eyes and said, “I’m going to have a baby.”
Xie Yu felt like he was struck by lightning.
He felt time stop for a moment, and the world felt like it was leaving him behind.
He was all by himself and couldn’t even hold up a small tree.
“My child needs a dad to live. I want the baby to have both parents.” Su Yan saw that Xie Yu had red and teary eyes, and he looked very sad and upset. She found it difficult, but she wanted to finish talking to Xie Ye. She also said, “He treats me really well. And he will change after having the baby.”
Xie Yu looked down and didn’t say anything.
It was like an invisible wall was blocking him from her.
They were stuck and couldn’t return.
Su Yan felt bad, but she had to say “no” anyway.
Before she could say sorry, Xie Yu interrupted her firmly. “He will never change. He is arrogant, out of control, sneaky, and dishonest.” He looked at Su Yan’s eyes straight. “Can you believe he would murder me in front of you? It’s like a warning to someone else by harming someone else. I am the chicken that was taken away, and you are the surprised monkey. He won’t be kind to you or your kids.”
Su Yan sounded confident and said, “He will change.”
She didn’t know when Bai Xingfan would come here, but she was sure he knew about her pregnancy by now.
She really believed that he would change because of the child and never do scary things again.
Xie Yu didn’t give a clear response; he sighed and looked at the dark sky. He said with a little laugh, “He’s not a good person; you should avoid him.”
Su Yan did not say anything.
A little while later, they went to the Xie family’s grave.
In front of the big black tombstone, there was a wide staircase made of dark grey marble. There were five steps in total. The older people were on the top steps, and the younger people were on the lower steps. Xie Yu’s dad, Xie Hehai, was buried in the third row in the middle.
Xie Yu pointed to an empty cave on the second to last staircase and said, “That’s where I will be buried. I don’t know when I will be able to move in.” Then, after a short silence, he said, “Maybe it will be too early.”
Su Yan didn’t feel good and said, “You still have a lot of time to live.”
Xie Yu was surprised and asked, “Do I have it?”
Su Yan said confidently, “Yes, you definitely have.”
Xie Yu laughed and said, “I’ll be gone when he comes.”
“No, you don’t have to worry. They will not be here for a while, and when I go home quickly, everything will be okay.”
Xie Yu didn’t give a clear answer, and then he asked, “Do you want to keep living like this forever?”
‘Would I like to be a nightingale forever? She hated feeling trapped in a cage and being followed and watched all the time like she was not a person but someone’s property.
But what could she do?
She couldn’t get away, she couldn’t leave, and she couldn’t say no to his love for her.
His paranoia frightened her, but he gently made her sink.
It felt like she was stuck in quicksand. The smooth and strong feeling around her was gentle, but she couldn’t escape. The harder she tried, the more she fell.
“He will be different from now,” Su Yan said. “He will be a better person for the child.”
‘She still believes in him.’ Xie Yu felt really sad and closed his eyes. ‘Yanyan, you made me do this.’
When he opened his eyes, they showed no more worry or doubt. Instead, they looked dark and cold. He decided, “So, let him show you.”
‘I trust him’—but Su Yan couldn’t tell Xie Yu.
Xie Yu didn’t like Bai Xingfan. So she couldn’t favour Bai Xingfan when Xie Yu was around.
She gently sighed and respectfully bowed three times to the spiritual seat of Xie Hehai. After that, she quietly told Xie Yu, “I’m going home.”
She had already said all she needed to say, and now she had to go home.
But Xie Yu was not in a rush. “Do you really need to leave so quickly?”
Su Yan asked, “Are you not going to release me?”
Xie Yu: “Why? It’s raining a lot; I’m worried about you going back by yourself.”
Su Yan was surprised and didn’t know how to react when she looked at him.
Xie Yu smiled and said, “I’m waiting for him to come get you.”
Su Yan was shocked. She asked, “What did you say?”
Xie Yu repeated. “I am just waiting for him to come get you.”
Su Yan found out something was strange and became really mad. She shouted, “Are you out of your mind?”
“He will never change; I’ll risk everything to show you it,” Xie Yu said confidently, with a determined look on his face.
Su Yan was shocked and muttered in shock, “You are insane.”
She didn’t want to stay here any longer, so she turned and walked away. But as she turned, many bright car lights shone through the rainy darkness and hurt her eyes.
Have a nice day!