You hidden in my heart - Chapter 44.2

Chapter 44.2

Although she didn’t want to admit it, she was really jealous of Li Xining from the bottom of her heart. She had been jealous of her since she was a child. She was jealous that she was beautiful, jealous that she studied well, jealous that she had so many brothers who were good to her, and jealous that she had a good father who treated her like a princess.

In Zhao Cichu’s memory, every time she saw Li Xining when she was a child, Li Xining was wearing a beautiful princess dress and a nice little satchel, which also contained various hairpins and headbands.

 She had many beautiful skirts and small bags, as well as countless hairpins and headbands.

Zhao Cichu was envious and wanted them very much. Every time Zhao Cichu asked Li Xining where she bought these things so her mother could buy them for her, Li Xining always replied, “I don’t know. My father bought this for me.”

When answering the question, Li Xining’s tone was very natural and calm. She really didn’t know, but to Zhao Cichu, it sounded like she was showing off nakedly. 

Zhao Cichu’s father never bought her a skirt or a bag. Everything she had was bought by her mother. Her father never bought her even a hairpin.

She remembered that when she was a child, she pestered her father countless times to buy things for her, but her father never promised her. Every time, the answer was, “Dad is busy; let your mother take you shopping.”

Over time, she had given up on this idea and had no longer pestered her father to buy things, but this did not mean that she would let go. She was still unwilling and jealous of Li Xining, but she would also comfort herself quietly, saying, “My dad makes a lot of money, so he is very busy, so he doesn’t have time to buy me a skirt. Li Xining’s father is not busy and doesn’t make money, so he has time to buy her a skirt.”

She once naively thought that Li Xining’s family was very poor, so she always showed her superiority in front of Li Xining to cover up her jealousy towards her. It wasn’t until she went to school that she realised that the Li family was not poor at all. Although Li Xining’s father was also busy, he was still willing to accompany Li Xining. 

But her father neither bought her a dress nor took her to the park, let alone accompany her to study. He didn’t even come home often, and he always quarreled with her mother when he came home. The two were like enemies, quarreling when they met.

Later, she was not only jealous that Li Xining had a good father but also that she had a harmonious family.

She was jealous of everything about Li Xining.

 Later, she heard that Li Xining’s father had died in a car accident. That night, she was so happy that she couldn’t sleep. Just thinking about how no one would treat Li Xining like a princess anymore made her feel happy.

On the day she attended Li Xining’s father’s funeral, she stood in the crowd with her parents and saw Li Xining and her mother kneeling in front of the crystal coffin and crying unnaturally. At that moment, she felt some sympathy for her. —— ‘From now on, you will be more pitiful than me. You don’t even have a father. At least I still have a father.’

In fact, when Li Xining’s father just passed away, she considered living in harmony with Li Xining in the future. But when she saw Li Xining again, she was still so beautiful, still good at both morals and learning, and still, she wore nice clothes. The only difference was that her father was gone. The person who bought her skirts and satchels had changed from her father to her mother.

She was still deeply loved and still treated like a princess.

‘Why?’

She became more and more jealous of Li Xining, but at that time she could always comfort herself—it was okay; she was just a poor little girl without a father. She had a father and a mother, so there was no need to be jealous of her.

But later, her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was in the late stage when discovered, and she died within a few months.

The only person in the world who was willing to buy her a dress was gone, and she became even more pitiful than Li Xining. On the day of the funeral, she knelt in front of her mother’s crystal coffin and cried even more miserably than Li Xining did before.

The most painful thing for her was that from the time her mother got sick to the time she passed away, her father never shed a tear or showed even a trace of sadness.

Maybe Li Xining, who was standing in the crowd at that time, would sympathies with her from the bottom of his heart, thinking that she was the most miserable little pitiful person in the world.

 But he didn’t want to be second to Li Xining. She couldn’t let Li Xining be proud. Since no one would buy her a skirt, it didn’t matter. She could buy it for herself. Although her father was unwilling to buy anything for her, he was willing to give her money.

From then on, she began to spend money like water. Even the paper clip she used to hold papers when she was in school would have to be bought by Tiffany, not to mention the clothes she wore, the bag she wore, the shoes she wore, and the cosmetics she used. She bought everything high-end. The more expensive it was, the more she bought it.

She was using luxury goods and money to defend her self-esteem.

Every time she went to see Li Xining, she wore branded things from top to bottom. 

Later she fell in love, and that was her first love. In fact, she didn’t like that boy very much, just because the boy’s family was rich. Although he looked very average, he had a good figure and knew how to dress up, and he was well-known in school. So she agreed to his pursuit.

After falling in love, she began to look forward to the next meeting with Li Xining. At that time, the two of them had not completely broken up. She would never forget the expression on Li Xining’s face when she said that she had a boyfriend.

The first thing she asked at that time was, “Li Xining, is anyone chasing you?” In fact, this question was nonsense. She knew with Li Xining’s appearance, there must be some people chasing her. But she asked that just to mock her. 

Li Xining didn’t know why Zhao Cichu suddenly asked this question, and she was too embarrassed to answer directly. She could only ask, “Why do you ask this?”

Zhao Cichu shrugged and said indifferently, “Nothing. I’m just asking you. There was someone in our school chasing me, and I agreed.”

Li Xining was quite stupid at that time. She was surprised and asked, “Are you in love?”

 Zhao Cichu was very satisfied with Li Xining’s reaction. She looked calm and asked with a bit of disdain, “You have never been in love?”

Li Xining seemed not to hear her disdain at all and shook her head.

Zhao Cichu had to make Li Xining feel down; otherwise, she wouldn’t be able to sleep, so she raised her eyebrows and looked at Li Xining sideways, “Tch, you haven’t even been in love?”

At that time, the two of them were just at the age of fourteen, so it was normal for her to have never been in love, but Zhao Cichu’s tone made Li Xining very uncomfortable. She clearly felt contempt, but she couldn’t refute her because she really had never been in love, so she could only shake her head reluctantly. “No.”

But Zhao Cichu didn’t intend to let her go like this. The contempt and disdain in her expression became more intense, and she said contemptuously, “It’s all because the person chasing you is ugly and poor, right?”

Li Xining probably realised that Zhao Cichu was deliberately targeting her, so she didn’t continue to answer her words.

Zhao Cichu was reluctant and said with a bit of showoff. “My boyfriend’s family is very rich, and he is also very handsome and powerful. Everyone in the school is afraid of him.”

Li Xining didn’t want to hear her continue to show off. After going down, she didn’t know how to attack her, because she was really inexperienced in this area. After holding it in for a long time, she finally asked, “Is he studying well?”

After hearing this, Zhao Cichu burst out laughing. She laughed while mocking her, “Li Xining, are you a fool? Nothing can be done without studying. Are you going to fall in love with studying in the future?”

Li Xining was choked by Zhao Cichu’s words and could not speak, and her face turned red and white. 

Zhao Cichu became more and more happy as she watched it, and in the end, she did not forget to crush her again. “My boyfriend said that what he dislikes the most is a nerd with no emotional intelligence. Only now do I know that you are the kind of person he was talking about? Women, you don’t know how to dress up and have no emotional intelligence. They are all about studying. The people chasing you must be some ugly and earthy nerds. No wonder you have never been in love. I think you are like this: you will never fall in love in this life. If you want to find an interesting boyfriend, you can only choose a general among nerds.”

At this point, she smiled, her expression filled with the joy of a winner, and started bragging about her boyfriend again, “My boyfriend is very good to me. His friends all call me sister-in-law when they see me. By the way, he also gave me a Hermès bag and bought me a Chanel skirt for my birthday. Have any boys given you anything? No, you are so pitiful. No one has given it to you.”

Her words were mixed with the personal hatred that had accumulated in her heart for many years—no one treats you as a princess anymore.

Li Xining was still choked by her and couldn’t say a word.

At that moment, Zhao Cichu smiled, smiling so proudly that she had never been so proud in her life.

She felt that she had beaten Li Xining this time.

This was the penultimate fight between the two of them. The penultimate time was at her grandfather’s birthday banquet. She used some tricks to make Li Xining lose face. It was really satisfying.

However, after that time, the two of them completely broke up. Li Xining would never attend any occasion where she was present. She could no longer attack her, which made her feel that she had lost a lot of fun in her life.

But she didn’t expect that the old man of the Li family would dare to invite her family to his birthday banquet. ‘It seems this old man really didn’t care about his granddaughter, so I could mess with her again.’

So, she prepared a long-lost meeting gift for Li Xining—a wolf dog.

However, who knew that Li Xining also prepared a meeting gift for her—her boyfriend.

Have a nice day!